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| Saturday, July 4th, 2009 | |
| 1:28 pm | Happy Fourth!   |
| Thursday, July 2nd, 2009 | |
| 10:31 pm | |
| 6:26 pm | Quotes, thoughts, Bill Bryson's "A Walk in the Woods" It's one of those books that inspires me to go on an adventure. Nearly everyone I talked to had some gruesome story involving a guileless acquaintance who had gone off hiking the trail with high hopes and new boots and come stumbling back two days later with a bobcat attached to his head or dripping blood from an armless sleeve and whispering in a hoarse voice “Bear!” before sinking into a troubled unconsciousness On Bear Attacks: Their Causes and Avoidance by Canadian academic Stephen Herrero “If this is not the last word on the subject, then I really, really, really, do not wish to hear the last word”. All the books will tell you that if a grizzly comes for you, on no account should you run. This is the sort of advice you get from someone who is sitting at a keyboard when he gives it. Take it from me, if you are in an open space with no weapons and a grizzly comes for you, run. You may as well. If nothing else, it will give you something to do with the last seven seconds of your life “In many places in America now, it is not possible to be a pedestrian even if you wanted to be” ( This is quite true, unfortunately. ) |
| Saturday, June 27th, 2009 | |
| 5:17 pm | Gaaah. Why do I keep not hearing my phone ringing? Should either turn down the car radio, or turn up my ringtone. *loses all energy to make any kind of effort to do basically anything about anything* |
| 4:51 am | I'm on my netbook at the library. The wireless works great-absolutely no setting up or fussing with stuff on my part. I just turn on the computer, it finds the nearest wifi connection and I'm off and running. This is much better than my last computer, which claimed it came with a wireless card but actually didn't, so I had to install some stuff and get an external wireless card. My apartment had a terrible connection, too-fast, but extremely unstable. This thing is light enough to take to libraries and starts up with no fuss at all. Incredibly long lasting battery too-my old one got me an hour if I was lucky. But I kinda miss my old one too because we went through so much together and it, you know, still has all my stuff on it. Including all the photos from the next installment of "Doll Treader" and a lot of my writing projects. Hope some of that is still on my USB drive. The only problem is that it does not do dialup. I tried and got a message that there was no modem installed. So I guess when I'm at my parents house, there will be no going online in my bedroom. But I can't help constantly thinking about how I miss my apartment. And remembering about how I really, actually, can't just go home to it when I get sick of my family. So...Michael Jackson is dead. That was pretty shocking, although I'm not sure what to say about it. I feel like something should be said. Other than wondering if Paul and Ringo are gonna get the Beatles catalogue back now. |
| 12:52 am | ( Garden Pics ) |
| Thursday, June 25th, 2009 | |
| 11:36 am | "We are a COMMUNITY of WOMEN" NO we ARE NOT. We're not even really a "we". And sometimes people just forget to think of your feelings. You can ask for other people to provide minimal reasonable safeguards for you, but you can't expect them to read your mind. |
| Wednesday, June 24th, 2009 | |
| 2:02 am | Wow. *Somebody* doesn't need to see her therapist this week. |
| Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009 | |
| 2:17 pm | Laptop died. New one (a cheap netbook) coming in a couple of days. Delays moving out, of course. Not that I'd actually found a place. Still at parents house. It's been raining for two weeks, I feel so English. When I make my Iranian AG doll, I know what her name will be. Saw Star Trek. Loved most of it. Be back later tonight with something more substantial. |
| Thursday, June 18th, 2009 | |
| 12:50 pm | I read recaps on TwoP but tend to stay off the forums these days. Every time I peek in, I remember why I stopped doing that. For example, the Anna thread in the SPN forums is dedicated mostly to trying to think up legitimate reasons for their instinctive hate of her based on the fact that she is a female character (who isn't a mother figure and is under 30 and playing someone who is sort of a love interest). The dislike appears to be based on 1) things which never actually happened and 2) a strange and persistent belief that SPN is a better quality show than it really is and that Julie McNiven is not a good enough actress to be allowed on it. Now, I think SPN is a better show than people who don't watch it think it is, but it's also not as great a show as it could have been or as good a show as the hardcore fans often think it is-people always get so *betrayed* when the seams show. Anyway, it'd probably be a lot easier to get Kripke to give the show better female characters if female fans didn't keep hating on the ones that already exist (which prompts him to get rid of the girls or tear them to down please the fanbase). As many fans as there were protesting the Unfortunate Implications of S3, there were an equal number ranting and yelling about how adding a regular girl to the cast was going to "ruin the show". And female characters are *certainly* held to different standards. which has been brought up Also, I really, really don't want to come off like Kripke and co. with their "the fangirls hate all the female characters on the show for no reason" rants, but I have to wonder, if Anna and Castiel's roles were reversed, if people wouldn't still hate Anna and love Cas. I'd imagine in that case, Anna would be perceived as this angel bitch who threatens to put Dean back in hell, chooses her orders over him and doesn't tell him everything about the seals, whereas Cas would be applauded as the tragic story of the beautiful angel who was so brave because he was willing to give up everything just to know what it's like to be human. That is *exactly* what would happen. And everyone would stil choose to slash Dean and Castiel and find some excuse why Anna was miscast/isn’t a good enough actress/is obviously secretly evil/was written into the script to distract fans away from D/C, etc. Not that I have any problems with D/C- I *don’t* but when you're dealing with a character not known for his monogamy anyway, there's no reason to fight over him. One person even said Anna was "manipulating" Dean. I don't see it that way but even if she was, *everyone* manipulates Dean! That's what S4 is all about-everyone using Dean for their own agendas. Unlike Ruby (I ain't sayin she's a gold digger but...) Anna's "agenda" in that ep was to a) stay alive and b)have a nice last night on earth if she wasn't going to make it. Burn her, burn her now! She didn't yet know exactly what was going on or who she was talking to. |
| Wednesday, June 17th, 2009 | |
| 1:40 am | We actually had a rain free day today. Mom and I went to Dover. I think I might actually be coming around to liking the place. If only moving there wouldn't mean I'd have to get a whole new set of mental healthcare professionals. Speaking of that, supposedly I got the casemanager I did because she's "non confrontational". Which is fine when we're one on one, but for dealing with other people on my behalf, I need someone who is willing and able, to be assertive and pushy. But not just assertive, assertive and with an ability to get past the roadblocks, tests and beaurocracies. Because if my mother could do that, I wouldn't need a casemanager. It's not just about being assertive- it's about being assertive while having the professional authority to demand things and get them. If you say "I'm so and so's mother and we want this done *now*" the person on the other end of the phone/other side of the desk just sighs irritably and does nothing for as long as they think they can get away with it. As for me, I mean, no one is ever listening to what I want anyway. Today I wanted iced coffee and ended up with tea. ( The Filk Version of Yesterday ) ( doll stuff ) |
| Saturday, June 13th, 2009 | |
| 10:35 pm | Kaya means, in Nimiipuu, "She Who Arranges Rocks". No, I don't understand what that means, but since I deliberately decided to move her to another tribe, it must be absolute nonsense in Abenaki. I've also been pronouncing it wrong, it's KEEya, not KAIya. But she came to me as Kaya, and I find it impossible to think of her as any other name. That's the problem with dolls that arrive with names, personalities and fully described back stories. No word on any of the apartments. I don't understand how it can be pouring rain, and yet my room is such a furnace? I just finished reading a fic in which Dean is a Carebear and Castiel is a My Little Pony. I kinda needed that. |
| Thursday, June 11th, 2009 | |
| 11:56 pm | I thought of putting a twist into my travel photo blog by occasionally using AGs as "tour guides" ala Globe Trekker. My first experiment with this involves Kaya. As you can see, I'm still having trouble with sizing the pictures-can you guys read the text at all? a note: Kaya is supposed to be Nez Perce but I deliberately decided I'd rather have a doll with some type of resonance for me (rather than just not knowing or caring that different tribes are different). I'm a big Tony Hillerman fan but I decided not to go the Navajo or Hopi route. I wanted a doll from a tribe I had some type of emotional connection to (or at least one from a tribe has any relevence to me at all-like if I meet a Native American on the street in my hometown, they're not gonna be Nez Perce). another note: I'm now afraid to link this on I've been babbling about dolls lately because I need the escape. Why do they have to ruin my comfort!outlet? Nothing in the housing situation has changed. I've started overeating. I missed my therapist appointment today and accidentally almost sideswiped my casemanager while driving past her car. It's also been raining all week. Some summer. I think I want to reshoot "Kiss Me Deadly" because it got interrupted in the move and it's not going to look the same if I try to continue with the same plot and sets in a new location. I have a much cooler, more coherent plotbunny anyway. |
| Monday, June 8th, 2009 | |
| 7:11 pm | American Girl is anarcho hippie terrorista. Heee. Although what's funny is that I sincerely doubt that was done on purpose. "Rebecca" and "Rubin" are both very widely used names, not to mention they are easy for little girls to pronounce and have a pretty alliterative sound. I think pointing out that it could be racist is far more racist than what appears to be a vaguely amusing coincidence. You're the one who went there, not AG, after all. MEME, from magic_at_mungos Comment to this entry and I'll pick up to three of your fandoms. You must then update your journal and answer the following questions: 1. What got you into this fandom in the first place? 2. Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on? 3. Favourite episodes/books/movies, etc? 4. Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)? 5. Do you think more people should get into this fandom? ( I answer! ) |
| Friday, June 5th, 2009 | |
| 11:32 am | How karmic, or perhaps ironic, that I spent last night in a parking lot in Manchester. The entire night. In my car. My headlights refused to come on, so I couldn't go anywhere. I do have an open invitation to spend Thursday nights with my sister in cases of snowstorms, thunderstorms, overtiredness, etc but the thing about broken headlights is that I wouldn't have made it two blocks before getting pulled over. And even if I made it all the way to my parents house without being seen by a cop, which is highly unlikely, the trip would include one *already* very scary stretch of highway, a stretch that has very few lights, and the road to my parents house, which is long, windy, steep and has almost no streetlights. They don't quite live hanging off the side of a mountain but you sometimes get that impression. So I pulled into a brightly lit area, locked my doors, rolled up my windows and spent the night reading and nibbling on snack food until it was light enough to risk driving home. |
| Thursday, June 4th, 2009 | |
| 1:17 pm | Everybody Hates Manchester So it's wonderful that NH now has gay marriage. ( But: A NH Based Rant From An Actual Resident ) |
| Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009 | |
| 8:19 pm | Parts 3 through 6 of Supernatural: Kiss Me Deadly are up (Sam and girl!Dean tackle a ghost in an art museum). http://voyageofthedolltreader.blogs http://voyageofthedolltreader.blogs http://voyageofthedolltreader.blogs http://voyageofthedolltreader.blogs I've been having trouble with the sizing of the pictures- either they're too small to see the text or they're so big you have to click on them to get the whole pic (and I tried so hard to position the doll so you could see *all* the artwork in the gallery, too). I swear I'm working on that. ( Bonus pic: Deanna/Anna on the beach ) I'm finding it very difficult to keep track of what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm working to catch up and respond to things though. |
| Monday, June 1st, 2009 | |
| 11:56 am | I realized this weekend was a Jewish holiday (someone on OtherFlist mentioned that in passing), so I guess there might have been a specific reason for premiering Rebecca this weekend. Some of her outfits are already up on Ebay and not as pre orders either (cause you can't do pre orders on Ebay). For much more than AG is selling them for. How very clever. Or, you know, sleazy. Becuase she *just* came out yesterday-over a weekend, which was a holiday for a lot of people and, you know, a *weekend*. Stores that sell AG can't have even recieved the merchandise yet, so this person is selling items they haven't actually, technically, recieved yet. For my SPN story, I think This guy might've made a better Sam (minus the goatee). But when I was choosing, the Hardy Boy doll was cheaper and looked different on Ebay than he does in RL. I'm not as nervous about altering him to make him better though (suggestions?). It's different with the Cinderella because that might be the only Basic Blonde Cinderella I ever get. So. My bad weekend. It's not that I lacked the money to get a new place, but I haven't found one yet. WEnt to see a potential roommate, who decided they'd rather not live with me. Had menstrual accident the same day. Saturday, family came over to help me move out of my place. When I have a day as exhausting and filled with other people as that, the one thing I want to do is go home to my own quiet, comfortable place and sleep. Which was the one thing I could no longer do. Because, guess who is back with her parents? ANd not just back with them, I'm sleeping on their couch. We're trying to fix that, and they keep trying to llift my spirits by telling me I probably won't hav eto be here long. But just wait til that wears off... I can't wait to see how my caseworker and therapist react to the Other Me. By that I mean, Lives With Her Parents!Me. |
| Sunday, May 31st, 2009 | |
| 10:53 am | This news is very welcome, considering how badly my weekend has been going *ear piercing shrieking commences* OMG OMG THERE"S A NEW HISTORICAL AMERICAN GIRL And she's...wait for it... JEWISH! Rebecca Rubin of NYC in 1914, I want you, I need you, I LOVE YOU. *Eeeeeee!* |
| Friday, May 29th, 2009 | |
| 9:24 pm | Never mind. I found a pair of decent black sneakers that'll do. |